Becoming

A long time ago I never knew myself. Then the memory 
Of shame birthed its gift. 
No more. The small one, the weak one, the frightened one. 
Running from beatings, deflating. I'm becoming more 
Than a man. More than you ever were. Driven and burning 
To rise beyond Jesus. 
I'm born again with snakes eyes 
Becoming Godsize 
I found my life was slipping through my hands. Perhaps 
Through death my life won't be so bad. 
I can see you, can fuck you, inside of you. Staring through 
Your eyes. Belittle your friends to serve me, to suck me, 
To realize my saving grasp. I of suicide. I the unlord. 
I'm born again with snakes eyes 
Becoming Godsize